Time spent wisely …

Moving is such tedious work. However, now and again you’ll find something worth looking at whilst packing.

This afternoon I found old pictures of my family.

It’s odd to think that at one time we all lived under one roof and called this place home. We were a unit – a whole.

How strange to think that at one time my parents were married and that I shared a bathroom with an older sister. It was a simpler time in some ways. I knew what to expect on a daily basis. I knew that when I woke every morning that I would do so to a house that was bustling with life, routine, laughter, wonderful pets and of course love.

When did everything change? How have the years passed so rapidly? When did i become an adult with adult responsibilities?

Time is strange, it usually feels as if it’s passing much too quickly. Yet it’s always the same.

There are moments, when I desperately long to recapture my youth. I want to sit quietly on a Saturday morning eating Apple Jacks while watching The Banana Splits on a great behemoth of a television. I long for the sweetness of our family dog and cats. I desire the simplicity that was childhood, even though at the time, it seemed anything but simplistic.

But don’t we all now and again?

So, I allow myself a bit of dwelling, and then I pull myself out of the reverie, with the thought that yes, sometimes being an adult is difficult. Then I walk to the kitchen, find a bit of cookie dough and eat it for dinner (something I would never have been allowed to do as a child). And once again all is right with the world.

Appearances can be deceiving …

A few weeks ago while frittering  my time away on Twitter

I found the feed of a lovely British ballerina.

I read through her tweets, looked at her photos (and those of her boyfriend)

and

found myself somewhat intrigued.

She is young, wonderfully talented and lovely.

Her boyfriend the same.

I wondered about them.

Enough in fact that I placed them both in my favorites feed.

Through photos and words, I decided that they were madly in love gad about’s, happily twirling their way through life.

She dancing and he writing.

However, while unwinding this evening

I took a moment to look at their Twitter feeds.

And, to my surprise, it seems that the young man took his own life on February 14th.

Two last posts highlighted his emotional vulnerability.

One speaks of how sad he has been and he pleads for forgiveness from those he loves for not seeking their help.

He then apologizes and says “I love you all”.

The last post is this –

“I wish every single one of you a long and happy life.  I love you.”

With that, a screen shot of a text message on a phone.

A quote from Winnie the Pooh:

“There is something you must always remember.

You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem,

and smarter than you think.

But the most important thing is, even if we’re apart, I will always be with you.”

I am left with a couple of thoughts:

Firstly

Appearances may deceive.

Outward smiles and vivacious words

do not a happy life make.

Secondly

Be gentle with those you meet.  One never knows what sadness lies below and your kindness may save them.

Remember …

Life is difficult

and

souls are tender.

My prayer, is that this young mans soul

will finally know peace …