Self Truth …

I forgive myself.

Therefore I will let go of disappointment with kindness.

Inviting and allowing in the manifestation

of beauty and greatness instead.

With this clarity comes the realization

that my divinity still exists

and

runs deep.

The years of struggle and wrong choices are over.

I embrace the change.

It is –

grace

evolution

and

ever-present.

And the new-found freedom of heart

allows

lightness of being

and

disentanglement.

So, I will journey forth

accepting all the universe offers.

I can see the light

it illuminates the possibilities

and

they are endless.

I promise to:

take the road less traveled –

make decisions out of love instead of fear –

and

do something daily that challenges my soul –

There are new, crisp, pages to write on

so let’s start now …

Universal Gift …

Last night the universe blessed me with a gift.

It’s amazing, how when you least expect it, something gracious happens.

I met someone.

A random meeting of two kindred strangers.

I found him charming, kind and sweetly complimentary.

Raised in Russia, a dissident from birth (so he said),

with a Masters in Engineering

and a love for all things philosophical.

We spoke of the cosmos and our mutual admiration of words, both written and spoken.

He called me lovely and inquisitive.

It made me smile.

When I awoke this morning I strangely no longer felt disdain towards this day.

Instead I simply felt happy and somehow new.

A much-needed breath of fresh air to wash away the stagnancy.

Thank you.

Signs …

Do you believe in signs?

Are there really any accidents in life?

Or does everything happen for a reason?

I have always believed that life was full of signs. 

And, if you followed them, they would lead you down the yellow brick road of happiness.

But it’s not always easy to decipher their true meaning. 

It’s only after an ending comes, or after we’ve traveled down the wrong fork in the road that we realize what the universe was trying to tell us.

Signs are not always a precursor to unhappiness or heartache.  They can portend beauty and blessings as well. 

Twice in my life I’ve been blessed with signs that let me know life would be full and beautiful. 

The first time was after a very difficult breakup. While walking my puppy on a cold Winter day, I suddenly came to an abrupt halt.  Looking down at my feet I noticed the most beautiful butterfly.  It’s colorful body lay lifeless, yet fully intact on the cold gray cement.  As I stooped to gently scoop it up, I noticed it’s perfection. Soft wings, knowing antennae and a gentle aura.  I realized at that very moment that this beautiful bit of nature was given to me.  A gift from the universe telling me that life would go on.  That no matter what the days ahead brought, I would survive.  Thrive even.  I placed the creature in a box and put it away for safe keeping. 

That was over 8 years ago and I still believe.

The second occurrence happened recently, during an extremely difficult time in my life.  It was a cold and somewhat dreary day.  I had just leashed up the pup for an afternoon walk when I came to a sudden, unexpected halt in the doorway.  I don’t think I’ll ever be able to explain what stopped me.  But I immediately looked down at my front door mat and my eyes drifted to the most beautiful silvery blue and perfectly intact dragon-fly.  With gentle finger tips I lifted the delicate beauty and placed it into  a plastic box.  I realized that this bit of life had come to me to let me know that new and better things would touch my soul in the future. 

Dragonflies are a symbol of new life.  Just as the butterfly symbolizes change and evolution. 

Recently, numerous signs presented themselves to me.  But at the time of their coming I was unable to recognize them. 

But with that said,  I now know their meaning and thank the universe for its unending benevolence.

Take the time to see what is in front of you. 

Open your mind.

Listen to the wind, it will whisper its secrets.

Pay attention to the bluebird as it sits next to you on a bench.

Be heartfully open.

The answers are yours …

Lunar Pull …

I have felt somewhat restless today.

A feeling of intense anticipation is swirling just below the surface, but I know not why.

It’s as if  at any moment I might step around a corner and find just what I have waited for.

I am apt too think that the moon is the culprit. 

Its mysterious beauty shines full and bright this evening.  Begging to be honoured. 

The lunar pull is exotic and somewhat distracting. 

It feels as if an invisible line is tugging at my soul.  Attempting to gently draw it forth from my being.

And why not?

Isn’t the moon the guardian of the tides?

And, aren’t we as humans made up of  water?

I want to let go.

I wish I could lay down on the cool, sweet-smelling grass and simply melt into the earth. 

Bathed in cool white beams of light.

Deep

Intense

Fulfilling

Saturation.

I want to ebb and flow like the sea.

While deciphering universal secrets.

I wonder, if I knelt and lifted my heart to the sky

Would we become one?