I have made the decision that creativity is a must. Therefore, I will be posting one bit every day starting today. My goal is to have at least 371 posts by December 26, 2014. I seem to have fallen into the trap that is life. And in doing so, have completely forgotten the love that I feel for the written word. This saddens me. It’s the times when we feel that we have nothing to share or say that can become the most rewarding to write. It’s not just about digging deeply into the psyche, although that is certainly cathartic at times. It can also simply be about exploring the mundane and finding the beauty, hilarity and depth of the every day. So, on this the day after Christmas I make a promise to myself to share bits and pieces of life on a daily basis. I’m looking forward to the journey. Here’s hoping you’ll all ride along with me!
It’s quiet now.
My mind, which races through the days
slows like molasses.
Darkness permeates the room
allowing me to float effortlessly
No restraint, untethered and free.
sparkling bits of universal dust
drift about like fairy magic.
My heart says “make a wish”
Then suddenly, the word appears.
The letters are crisp and clean but with a softness about the edges.
Re-entry into the body is gentle.
There is –
It’s hot ..
The air is thick and pulsates with life.
One almost expects primordial ooze to begin flowing from the cracks in the sizzling pavement.
There is a damp, somewhat earthy scent to the air.
It’s as if the earths core energy has been released.
And, with each breath you take, you inhale bits of Ra’s soul.
I struggle to free myself from the Gods grasp
so that I may return once again to the cool, dark, deliciousness of inside.
Where the ever-present hum of whirred, cool air, offers blessed sanctuary and release.
An unsent card –
dancing ballerina –
memories of moments shared.
I don’t know what to do with them all.
Currently they reside in a neat pile
next to pink leather.
Sometimes I wonder what it would feel like
to be heartless.
Without the inclination to keep happy – Summer windswept bits.
But if I was, would I be the same?
In the place of warmth
Cool and controlled.
In the next life?
I’ve begun to pack away bits of life
Crystal pretties – ducks and bunnies
Shells with memories
Artwork saturated with sweetness
A pink memory book that holds one finished page
but is littered with notes, receipts and sparkly pieces,
that still wait to be fastened.
Wanting to belong.
Yet somehow knowing they never will.
A dried flower falls softly to the ground – undone from its hidden place..
Books with earmarked pages
all gently wrapped and placed in green bubbles and brown cardboard.
One soul defined –
heart remembered –
Have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror.
I did this evening and an odd thing occurred:
I didn’t really recognize the individual peering back.
There before me was a woman.
with soft unlined skin
and blue inquisitive eyes.
But there was something else,
a feeling of familiarity mingled with the unknown.
It was as if I could see the past – present and future all at once.
There was a beautiful strength emanating from this reflection
and it penetrated the cold glass.
I waited – wanting to hear her voice.
Hoping that privy bits of worldly advice and knowledge
would spill from the painted lips.
But there was none.
As I turned to walk away, I heard
bold words of encouragement,
beauty and love.
I switched off the light
I collect bits and pieces.
Small shards of moments that I cherished.
Cake toppers and so much more.
Every bit, a reminder of a precious moment once lived joyfully.
I suppose you could say that I am a true romantic.
It seems I have always been this way.
When I was a child I would tape conversations. Knowing (somehow) that one day the voices of loved ones on the tape would be ever so important.
An old poetry book filled with tidbits of my life. Now placed inside an airtight bag for safe keeping.
A mickey mouse cookie missing one ear forever living a cold (yet warm memory) existence within my freezer.
I believe that every lovely experience has a place within my heart and mind.
So, I hold onto the tangible manifestations of all the love, laughter and life.
These moments have shaped and molded me soulfully into the person I am today.
My past is who I am
where I have been.
So, as I move forward into life, I will continue to gather small tokens that I find along the way.
And, they will eventually mingle with the past, adding a rich patina to a life lived.