Time spent wisely …

Moving is such tedious work. However, now and again you’ll find something worth looking at whilst packing.

This afternoon I found old pictures of my family.

It’s odd to think that at one time we all lived under one roof and called this place home. We were a unit – a whole.

How strange to think that at one time my parents were married and that I shared a bathroom with an older sister. It was a simpler time in some ways. I knew what to expect on a daily basis. I knew that when I woke every morning that I would do so to a house that was bustling with life, routine, laughter, wonderful pets and of course love.

When did everything change? How have the years passed so rapidly? When did i become an adult with adult responsibilities?

Time is strange, it usually feels as if it’s passing much too quickly. Yet it’s always the same.

There are moments, when I desperately long to recapture my youth. I want to sit quietly on a Saturday morning eating Apple Jacks while watching The Banana Splits on a great behemoth of a television. I long for the sweetness of our family dog and cats. I desire the simplicity that was childhood, even though at the time, it seemed anything but simplistic.

But don’t we all now and again?

So, I allow myself a bit of dwelling, and then I pull myself out of the reverie, with the thought that yes, sometimes being an adult is difficult. Then I walk to the kitchen, find a bit of cookie dough and eat it for dinner (something I would never have been allowed to do as a child). And once again all is right with the world.

Today …

Grace.

It is the answer.

It makes the woman.

Sometimes it combines with humility and at other times it simply stands alone.

Holding myself with grace helps me to walk through the world gently. 

And, it allows my heart to be without constraint.

So, on this eve before Christmas Eve I will embrace life, simplicity, gentleness, belief and hope.

Gracefully.

Todays Longing…

The day is hot and slow. 

I’m longing to be away from it all. 

Someplace where the earth is a red clay. 

Where the smell of sweet grass is strong and the heat is dry and saturating. 

I want to see  wild flowers.

And, watch horses graze  in a pasture.

I want to know that when evening falls, all I’ll see is darkness. 

No outside world to disturb the quiet. 

I want to wake early and watch deer grazing in the dewy field and once again know the beauty of simple. ..